4 concerts + 1 weekend = Fucking exhausted, but so completely worth it.

S.K.I.N....there are no words for how much that group needs to have a foursome and let me watch. Gackt, Miyavi, Yoshiki, & Sugizo...*melts into a puddle of goo*

When I get over the shock of seeing their very 1st performace (as S.K.I.N.) live, I'll recap.

Anna Tsuchiya...she completely rocked my socks. And Ju-ken...he rocks everything else. I felt bad that she had to follow S.K.I.N.'s concert. Most of the people at the concert were dead on their feet, but she still got a great crowd. I was on floor level, so of course there was this huge (tall) guy standing in front of me swaying back and forth. Who the hell sways at a punk rock concert?

Oreskaband...those girls kicked so much ass. There was no way you could keep still. Even the people who weren't jumping around were still moving, if only a little. I would go bi for the trumpet player.

Chiaki Ishikawa...from See-Saw. It was so awesome seeing her live. Hearing the songs that I absolutely love from Gundum Seed, .hack, etc. made the close to the weekend absolutely perfect.

I think this is the first time I ever went to a convention, and only went in to the convention twice. And the only reason I went in the first time was to get the S.K.I.N. t-shirt that I didn't get at the concert.

PS. I'm at work...the convention is still going on...Transformers is at 1...but I don't get to see it. *bangs things around the office* How did I get so lucky to have an exam at 330pm? *hates school*

I joined a new fansub group earlier in February and just helped with releasing Itazura na Kiss episode 1. *happy dance* It makes me feel all tingly inside knowing that people are excited about it. It didn't turn out perfectly, but for being our very first release, I'm happy. ^_^

The link to our blog is on my info page. ^_^

I'm bored damnit! Someone entertain me.

If only some of that were true. Would I mind sleeping with Date? No...not at all. ^_^

National Novel Writing Month is upon me and I will strive to surpass the 50,000 word goal. The story I wrote last year (which came in at a measley 18,000 words) will be re-written to become an original work free of the fanfiction restraints. The characters evil yet loveable. The place new and unexplored. The plot imaginative and full of holes.

I promise to give it my all this month while the deadline nips at my heels like some rabid dog waiting to drag me down into the depths of uncertainty. I vow to never look that dog in the eyes, keeping my eyes glued to the computer screen, and my fingers at the keyboard. I vow to drink endless amounts of coffee, consume endless amounts of sugar, and partake of the wonderful head pills to battle against the horrendous pain brought on by coffee and sugar.

Wait for me, my friends. Cheer me on during this fanatical quest of novel writing greatness and insanity. I will emerge tired and worn out, but accomplished.

All the pretty pictures...I'm happy. ^_^

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Create your own! Originally Written By ga_woo, Hosted and ReWritten by darkman424

Mamo...is going to voice Light in the upcoming DeathNote anime...

This is the same Mamo who played Ishida (Fudomine) in the PoT myus...

The same one who voices Tamaki senpai in Ouran Koko Host Club.

*blink blink*

Is it my imagination...or isn't Mamo (while I love him dearly..he's so special ^_^) just a bit too...hyper to play Yagami Light?

Ya' know...I'm still trying to figure out why I'm awake at 245am. Something's just not right about that...

Anywho, it's been awhile, but a lot has been going on.

The shortened version:

I quit my job, and I don't regret it one bit.
I helped my mom move to Washington and am staying here for a few weeks.
My sinuses hate me because I'm staying. *sighs*
I will be back to California soon...probably around late September.
I will be going to Yaoi Con.
A friend of mine won't because her dad is dying.
I've been convinced to rethink my major for college.
And, I miss coffee. I've only had it twice since I've been here.

But I have gone through one episode of Nana, three episodes of Ouran Host Club, two episodes of Bleach, and I still have two episodes of Kyo Kara Maou to go. That's on top of the most recent Hana-Kimi manga, 4-6 of Ouran Host Club, 2-4 of Death Note, and endless bouts of movie watching...while playing with the cats.

All in all, fairly relaxing.

But I still miss coffee.
I need coffee.
Good coffee.
Not just decent coffee.
*sniffles*


Okay, it's almost 3am...I'm going to bed...

To dream of coffee...
And boys...
Japanese boys...
Who just happen to go by the names of Takumi and Tuti...
With Aiba doing his hip swirly in the background...

I should just get laid. *sighs*

I'm losing my job, so what do I do? I spend money. ^_^

Called Kinokuniya and asked if they could get Dream Live 3rd for me. She said they would try. After staring at Aiba rolling his hips in my icon, I couldn't stand it anymore.

On cdjapan, I just got Best Actors Series 4 with Oshitari...more specifically, with Saitou-kun. *melts into a puddle*

I'm also currently watching his dvd "calling". *more goo like melting*

Yay! for being able to type without looking....

Oh god, he's just hot.

He's screaming for me to rape him. to get raped with some of these scenes. *more melting*

There are only two guys that I really, really want over there...and he's one of them. He's tall, has a deep voice, knows some English...and is just hot. Plus, in the dvd, he has a couple of blond streaks in his hair...and does capioera (not sure if I just spelled that right...not caring).

I think I'm in love. </fangirl>

Okay, I'm going to finish melting and watch this dvd over and over for the next three hours...if not longer.

By the way...going to Expo this weekend... and I'm thinking about creating a site about him...will post later if I do...

Okaygottagobye.

EDIT: And fuck Boeing...they can kiss my ass.

So, everyone knows I'm going to be losing my job right?

Good.

Now, here's some other news....

I was planning on moving to Tacoma, Washington in August. That's not going to happen. I'm kind of sad about that, but oh well.

Now, for the reason why it's not going to happen...

I just got an offer from Boeing/Northrop to work for a 4 month contract, driving half the distance, and making twice the pay as I do here.

And did I mention that it's in the same field?

Someone must be looking out for me, 'cause damn...

*happy dance*

For even better news, I'll be here for Ycon and for the German Opera in October.

*more happy dance*

But I'm still going to move to Tacoma after the contract ends.

Seriously people, if you want to know a great field of work to get into, get into Production Control. The money is good!!!!!

Well, this wasn't what I wanted to update about...but oh well. It's gonna happen anyway.

On a quick note, my trip to Japan was amazing. I fell in love with it there, and I seriously can't wait to go back. If I have time, I'll post about the wonderful two weeks I had...

Unfortunately, it will probably be a long while before I'm able to go back. There was an email waiting for me after I got home last Monday from my boss. My company is shutting it's doors. More than likely, come November, I'll be laid off. I'm not surprised this is happening, and some good things might come of it, but it is a lot to deal with. We're to keep working normally, busy as ever, until the last day. I'm guessing 'normally' means 'bogged down with work'. There are a few people around here that think they can save their jobs if they haul ass and kiss it at the same time. Newsflash: JCI is closing our doors. We have no choice in the matter. They are not talking about relocation/transferring. Get over it. Look for another job, you dumb fuckers, and stop blaming me (and my department) for every little thing that's gone wrong here. I'm not to blame for this plant shutting down. I GAVE a damn about what happened to this place. YOU just sat with your thumb up your ass, waiting for the higher ups to pat you on your fucking head like a dog. So fuck off, and good riddance.

*deep breath*

So, on to the important question. What am I going to do after all of this? Well, that's actually easy. I'm going to stay until they let me go. I'll get the severence package, file for unemployment for a few months, and take that time to finish two fulltime semesters in college. Then, probably by the end of spring, I'll get a part time job and finish up with a BA degree in about three years.

Not too bad of a deal, right?

So, that's all taken care of.

Now, my anger in the rant above has been a little misguided. Right now, I'm angry (read: pissed off to the point of shaking) at my co-worker. He was supposed to come in Saturday...never happened, but he called. He should have been in yesterday...didn't happen, but he called. And he should have been in today...again, didn't happen, but he called. None of you have seen my posts (on another journal) about my old coworker, and how completely stressed and angry I was all the time. Since said coworker left, I'm definitely stressed, but not angry. Now, however, that's changed. This is the first time since my old coworker was here, that I've been this angry. Angry enough to still be highly pissed off even four hours later.

Regardless of all of that, I'm going to take an hour lunch, then stay here until 6pm to get all this work done.

Note: I really hate leaving papers on my desk at the end of the day.
I also hate having papers all over my desk to where I can't even SEE my desk.
I also got in at 6am. Thank you very fucking much oh wonderful coworker of mine. Please finalize all your affairs. Tomorrow, I draw blood. Have a wonderful day. ^_^

*goes off to lunch grumbling*

Okay, so I doubt I could have been more of a drama queen with that last post. ^_^ I got back from my hour long walk (it's scary how I'm used to that now) and realized that even though I'm leaving on Monday, this isn't the last time I'll be here. I'll go home, go back to work (as awful as that sounds), get working on a damn degree (seriously this time...I hope ^_^), save up the money, and come back.

My problem is that I either don't feel enough, or I feel entirely too much. And this time, I felt too deeply about leaving. I don't deny anything I said in the last post since I still feel the same. I just need to get over the little self-pity thing I have going right now.

It's already 130am, and I really need to get some sleep, but I just wanted to clear my head. Of course, that means dumping all my emotional thoughts on you. Sorry. ^_~

I'll get over this, and like I said, I'll be back.

Now, I'm going to bed...besides, the battery on my laptop is about to die again. hehe

Oyasumi nasai.

If I could pinpoint exactly why I'm writing this, I probably wouldn't type this at all. Maybe I feel the need for validation. Maybe I'm just being a drama queen. *shrugs* At the moment, I could care less.

I'm at the end of my two weeks stay in Shinjuku, Tokyo, Japan. It's 11pm Saturday night, and instead of being excited about the T.M. Revolution concert tomorrow night, the only thing on my mind is that I'm leaving Monday. In less than 48 hours, I'll be on a plane heading back for the states. Maybe this shouldn't depress me, but it does. I'm not entirely sure it has anything to do with going back to the day to day ratrace that is work and school. I'm also not sure that it doesn't have anything to do with it.

I like to move around. I don't want to stay in one place, and that's all I've been doing. As of July 6th, I'll have been at my company for two years. As of Tuesday, I will find myself with more work than I had ever dreamed of taking on. Will it mean a raise? Probably not anytime soon. Does that bother me? Of course. I can't survive on my own with what I'm making now, especially in a city like Long Beach, in a state like California.

I've been back in California for almost 10 years, and just the thought of that is kind of sickening. I grew up here, only being away for five years while I lived in Nevada. I hated living there, and there isn't just one reason why, but I don't want to go into that.

I knew before getting on the plane to come here that I would fall in love with the country. It seemed like a deep engrained knowledge, but I had no basis for that knowledge. I just knew. I couldn't have been more right. It feels like home but it doesn't. It feels like a place where I wouldn't mind changing my ideals.

There is one thing that has been bothering me though.

I don't feel homesick. I miss my mother and my friends, but they're a phone call away. And while I wouldn't be able to just jump in my car and meet with them, I can't find it in myself to really care.

Does that make me a bad person? A bad friend? A bad daughter?

Is there some part of me that completely blocks out any sort of regret in the decision to want to move here?

*shrugs* Of course, there is the distinct possibility that I'm just deluding myself, and at 25 years old, I should just get my head out of the clouds.

Hmm, that sounds about right.

Now, before I get even more depressed with the thought of leaving, I'm going to say goodnight to whoever has made it through this, and go for my last walk in Shinjuku at night.

WOOOO!!!!

I'm in TOKYO!!!!!!

I don't think there are really any words to describe my impressions of the city...although, this is only my second day, so I guess there isn't too much I can say just yet anyway.

The view from the hotel room is fantastic! Shinjuku is just amazing at night with all the lights. It somewhat reminds me of Los Angeles, only a hell of a lot nicer. But watching outside last night while it was raining was just beautiful. The thunder and lightning....just, wow.

Living in a city where you see such a diverse mix of nationalities, it feels really weird being one of the few non-Japanese people here. BUT MY GOD!!!! THE CUTE JAPANESE BOYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SQUEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!! *happy dance*

Okay, now that I have that off my chest, I'm going to go now. We're going to go to Shibuya today and walk around, watch a movie...that sort of thing. I'll try not to spend as much money as I did yesterday though. *blushes* I depleted the money in my account by over half. Oops? hehe Hell, it's my vacation, damnit!

Alright everyone, I'm outta here for now. I'll update later on when I come back to the hotel. *looks at time* The time difference is crazy. It's only 9am here.

Matane!!